Bitter perhaps…
Posted on | June 21, 2010 | Comments Off
She might as well have been sucking on lemons all week, her attitude was bitter bitter bitter and that was an understatement. She found herself resenting just about anything worth resenting, jealous of anything being jealous over, anxious over everything, and an all encompassing anger, although not violent at this point, was enveloping her like a fluffy robe after a warm bath.
She had issues. But didn’t we all. How we handle our issues is what makes us great people. Guess she wasn’t going down in any record book for greatness. Mostly sullen and definitely in line for feeling most sorry for herself. Where the hell did people get the inspiration to fight back and not let the world win? She didn’t have the energy to stand up for more than a half an hour. She couldn’t even shop. (This was an important development, one which definitely needed to be discussed with her physician.)
She had no ability to accept and move on. No patience and to commit and finish something was damn near impossible. What frustrated her more was that she knew all the damn things wrong with her and still couldn’t do anything about it. She just wanted to curl up in a ball in her bed. Maybe one day she’d wake and the world would be different.