A lack of self belief…
Posted on | April 11, 2010 | Comments Off
Ok, there, she said it. She was having trouble believing in herself. She imagined herself on American Idol being told that she had a raw talent but it wasn’t refined enough for the competition and she hadn’t picked the right song. She had, however, selected a lovely outfit. Her preparation would pay off in that respect, but nothing more.
But her real fear was trying. No, her real fear was failing, and she knew that was part of the game just as sometimes things ended very poorly in her previous line of work. How do people just get up and put themselves all out there she wondered? It was so hard for her to imagine doing that when she couldn’t even send in a simple entry to a contest.
On another note…The trees were fleshing up nicely with green leaves, still not quite full, but the skeletons were disappearing and daffodils and other signs of spring were blooming beautifully. This would be a huge improvement to her mood. She might even plant some of her own flowers, though the only people who’d really get to enjoy them would be the neighbors across the street and she wasn’t going to start on that subject.
She sighed as she thought again about her lack of belief. She hoped the beautiful new plaque she bought from Lori Koop’s Shop that said “Believe” would help her to do just that. She knew that one of her self help books from a decade or two ago had said to surround yourself with these little words of wisdom wherever you are so that was exactly what she wanted to do. (More preparation…would she simply be told her outfit was lovely?)
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